2.10.2013

teeny tears!

Hello hello!~

I have a massive update to drown everyone with. As I'm thinking about it though, I think I'll break it into separate entries just for ease and convenience. As a blog wanderer, I prefer when shit is separated by what I'm looking for, unless it really compliments each other then whatever. But my topics are very different.

This entry will be all about babies.
And the organization Teeny Tears.

If anyone is reading this and would like to help out in any way, please contact Teeny Tears directly or even comment here if you'd rather. I feel quite passionate about it and want to tell everyone in hopes that someone will get inspired and get involved as well. I mean, just look at how tiny those are. Guh. Breaks my heart.

Today, well technically yesterday the ninth, I made my very first Teeny Tears donation drop off to a local hospital. I'm very excited and pleased that I was able to do this. It's actually where I was born and where my dad works (for 40+ years!) so you can easily say this hospital is fairly entangled in my life. Thankfully, it's not for medical issues for myself or loved ones. My medical entanglements lie at Jules Stein and UCLA. But that's a different story. 

As I mentioned in my last entry, I've got the donation bug bite. Well I jumped into Teeny Tears. I made 24 sets of diapers (half large, half small) which are all tied up and ready to go to the right there. I stacked them and magically made it look like I have a fraction of how many sewed. Hurrrrr. And I'm buying some more flannel and going to crank through 10 sets of large this week to send off to a far away hospital in need.

I have not personally been involved with any angel babies, be it me or friends, but I can only imagine the massive hole that must burst through every parents' heart. I actually don't even want kids and wouldn't say I enjoy kids that much. But that doesn't mean that I don't respect and understand the love and adoration that others have for their children. Kids just aren't for me basically. This project is one that when I stumbled over it, it just hit my heart and made me sad and I knew instantly I wanted to help. And I think those are the charity projects you should invest into. So here I am, sewing tiny little flannel diapers. I hope that these diapers can bring some comfort the the ailing parents.

I really got involved with this project because it somehow emotionally tied into my medical emergency trauma mess from almost 5 years ago. The anniversary is actually coming up on Feb. 23. I can't believe it's been 5 years. I was in a very traumatic roll over car accident. And by roll over, I mean we barrel rolled for nearly two football fields and somehow I maintained consciousness. It was a hot mess. I received an orbital blowout fracture of my right eye socket. Basically, the entire floor and back of my eye socket was completely obliterated. My eyelids were torn back and my tear duct was severed. I also had an overwhelming amount of splinters and debris in the muscles and tissues of my socket. Somehow my eyeball miraculously came out unharmed. It just fell back down into my cheek and hung out for a few days while I waited for surgery. I waited for over 48 hours to go into surgery with a huge open wound mess of a face. My family were in shreds and I was just kind of on standby, waiting. If someone had given us something sweet and touching, like in the manner of offering these grieving parents some diapers, it would have been amazing. It would have been so moving that someone would do that for someone they don't know in their ultimate time of need. If I had been given something to touch, that would have been so calming. I was so bewildered as I spent my entire hospital stay practically blind as opening my left eye made me dizzy and nauseous as hell. And I was in a sterile hospital bed and it's just awkward and uncomfortable to say the least.

Long story short, if someone would have given me a comfort item in my time of distress, it would have meant the world to me, and I know my parents feel the same. So when I stumbled over Teeny Tears, it was perfect for me. I can now give back to strangers in need.

And I actually did have strangers help me. People stopped to help us on the side of the road. They tried to pour water on my face and hand to wash off all of the dirt and blood. They also tried to wrap the large cut on my left hand with a first aid kit someone had in their trunk. It ended up being the most painful bandage to remove in the history of the world, but it was a bandage made out of love. I know they tried their best to help me the only way they could, and for that I am so thankful and touched that they would do that. Someone also put their snow jacket over me. I'm sure I bled all over it. But it was a very kind gesture. And now it's time I repay, so to speak, to others in need. I can't just go out looking for horrific car accidents to help people how they helped me. So Teeny Tears is my starting place. I'm literally just thinking right now if there is something I could offer to the Jules Stein Eye Institute where I was treated to the patients coming out of surgery. Or to UCLA where I waited in a bed. Something. I don't know. It's still overwhelming to process some of my stay.

Onward to helping others!

Soooo, on that downer awkward note,  I'll be back soon to do the next installment, all about the new pendants I'm making! Eeeeek! I'm loving every minute of it.

And once again, please go check out Teeny Tears. They need help in all kinds of ways, so even if you can't sew, you can still help.

Toodles for now~

1.13.2013

donation bug

Ello' ello' ellllllo'!

I definitely gushed over some Labyrinth delightfulness the other night with the man. He had never seen the whole movie. He got disturbed by the "Dance Magic Dance" song and shut it off many many years ago. But I convinced him to watch it all, because it's AMAZING. Ffffff

Anyhow, I'm writing a journal because I'm super excited about some stuff I'm about to embark on concerning donating handmade goods to hospitals. I decided the other night to wander about the internet, checking out charities looking for handmade goods. I had done this over a year ago and never committed to anything. But this year will be different. Also, when I searched this year, sites have improved and the community seems to have grown and expanded, which is great to see.

Teeny Tears is an organization that runs off of handmade donated flannel bereavement diapers. A set of 2 diapers are given to the family, one for the baby and one for the parents to keep if they wish to. The diapers are super tiny, made for preemies and micropreemies that are in the NICU or were stillborn or have passed away. These babies are too tiny to fit any commercial diapers. Also, these diapers are meant to help comfort the parents during this terrible time in their lives.

I have decided to start making diapers. I simply have to because I was so touched by everyone's stories about losing their babies. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to go into premature labor and then lose your baby, or even worse, in my mind, giving birth to a still baby that died in my womb. That is so terribly heartbreaking. I also found out that two hospitals near me are accepting locations, so this makes it even better since it's right in my community. Of course, I don't meant that any other hospital doesn't deserve the diapers I make. But being able to just go drop off the diapers does mean that I can spend more money on supplies and making more diapers than spending some of that money on shipping. 

I also found out that flannel is half off at Joann's. Fuck yes. Means I'm buying lots. 

I will be donating burial sets to Mikayla's Grace. Each burial set consists of 2 sets of each item, of a gown, booties, and hat. It's the same idea as the diapers, that the baby will be buried in one set and the parents can keep a matching set for their memories.

I'm also going to be donating headbands and bows to Bow Dazzling. They are a organization that donates handmade hair accessories to girls going through chemo and other illnesses at the hospital and are just trying to make them feel pretty and girly again.

I'm very personally inspired to give back to these families in need after my own intense hospitalization almost 5 years ago. Granted it was for severe injuries from a nasty car accident, but if someone had given me something handmade to try to comfort me, I would have been so touched. I probably would have sobbed my brains out. I did have things given to me but in a different way, and after I was more coherent and thinking about things, I was touched by what people did for me. Some people had stopped to help us after the accident. They tried to wash the dirt and blood off my face. They wrapped my hand with a little care bandage that they tried so hard to do. They put their jackets on my bloody mess of a self. They tried very hard to do what they could.  

I want to donate some hats to the children at a local children's hospital as well. I've made my own pattern for Pokeball hats and when I think about if I was a kid and I was given a Pokeball hat, I would be puuuumped.


Sooooo I've decided to set some goals for myself. 
I will make at least four burial sets this year. I'd like to try to make one a month eventually.
I will make at least 2 yards worth of diaper sets a month. 
I will make at least 6 headbands a month. 
I still need to figure out a proper blanket goal.

After I get these ones underway and in rhythm, I will add in some hats for kids. 

So yes. I've been bitten by the charity bug and will make this year be filled with giving to others. I can make this happen. I would love to be able to keep increasing the amount that I am donating and I plan to be keeping a tally of what I donate so that I can at least keep it consistent, but really I'd like to be able to kick my own numbers' asses next year. I'll update on here at the end of each month with my tally and where the things are going to.

Here's to a year of giving to those in sad places. <3

1.10.2013

new year, new commitments.

Hello everyone and anyone.~

It's a new year and I've left this blog to fester and rot like a unloved corpse. Shame on me. I haven't posted shit since July. Fffffff. So much failure. But while I was wasting time on Facebook, a friend of mine was pondering whether to start a blog or not to and it reminded me of this unloved creature so I ventured on over and felt inspired to get this thing going again, and for real this time too.

I've decided to commit to keeping this thing updated. I've also started a Facebook account as an artist under my extended artist name painted maru. Oh, how that name has traveled with me for so long. Who knew that a lame myspace name would attach to me like a leech for almost 8 years now. And I still love it, if not love it more.

Since it is late and I promised myself to be crafty productive tonight and make some bracelets, I'm going to wrap this up.

I will be posting on here much more frequently with the crap I'm working on as well as more inspiration posts and such. I've been doing a few DIYs that are from the internet, so I should actually post my outcomes of those said DIYs and help continue to spread the DIY love. Maaaaaybe I'll actually make some tutorials myself. But don't hold your breath because I hate the digital composition side of doing that crap. But anyways, I'll do another post very soon, a legit post.

Welllll, I really hope to get this creature growing and maybe even actually get some followers. I have this pipe dream that I could have a blog that people frequent and get excited about. But to even get anywhere towards that crazy idea, I need to actually post on here.


Here's to a new year of expanding and growing!~
<3

7.06.2012

summer project list explosion + tutorial links~

Oh my. I have been mia on here for ages. The masquerade ball was dramatic. Anime Expo destroyed the last bit of energy and patience and just brain power I had left. I swear that I'm still trying to solidify my mashed potato brain. Fffffff. I'm just wiped out.

Sooooo, I decided to round up all of the projects I'm lusting and gushing over getting my grubby little fingers to work on, on here. I figured this would be an easier way to keep track than to keep wandering through folders of files of madness of messiness of always being distracted and then never getting to work on that shit. HA. Okay, onto links and images and madness.

CLOTHING~
And I just splurged with my profits from Anime Expo and purchased a snazzy new Brother CP7500 sewing machine that has lots of spiffy and fancy things. I am fucking pumped. I'm all about fishtail skirts, open knit sweaters, and sheers. And I need at least one galaxy item in my closet.

Holly Stalder


 Holly Stalder

 Free People

Alexander McQueen
but with less boob smashing going on.

Merino wrap poncho. Crochet.


crochet bikini -  I haven't settled on a pattern yet. But I MUUUUUST make one.

 

JEWELRY~
Lots of links to full DIY tutorials. *flails hands* guuuuuh I so want to work on lots of these but don't have the supplies right this moment.
hex nut bracelet - I prefer this one, but the one below is lovely too.
wrap bracelet - seriously, once you read a couple of these diys, you'll never want to go drop the ridiculous price tag amount this shit has in stores. sooooo easy and cheap to make these lovelies at home.
perfect summer necklace - I plan on doing a bracelet variation. 
woven chain necklace - I want to do a bracelet variation of this one too.
beaded leather bracelet
tiny terrarium necklace -  I have a shit ton of bottles left over from an Anime Expo project. Ffff.
inverted cross ring -  I NEED me a cross ring dammit!
resin casting bangle mold - I have several resin jewely projects in mind. Soooo excited to get them figured out and started. Two inspiration photos are below.

 Gilding Alternate

.....some moth I happened over on tumblr forever ago.

RANDOM CRAP~
little black parasol -  I may crochet my own panels instead.
faulig - ooak doll. I am very VERY determined to do some sculpting this summer.
custom crochet kindle cover with chart (secret gift)
custom kitchen jars (another gift)
loooooots of lights. I seriously don't have the brain power to link all of them. I will do a separate entry soon for them.
lots and lots of resin experiments. Ffffffffffff But I'm keeping them secret until they are done.


And I'm sure there are a shit ton more things that I can't remember right now. I'm also sure everyone has noticed that I must be on cut out and keep a shit ton. I also love to wander over to design sponge. Lovely tutorials and massive amounts of inspiration.

Happy DIYtastic summer! I'd love to hear about anyone's adventures, even if I don't know who you are. I love sharing crafty times with people. <3


 

5.14.2012

plans are a changin'

So I'm still fretting and freaking out about masquerade costume making and AX. But who is surprised about that. I've been having a bit of a personal meltdown regarding creativity's lack of presence in my current life and it's just become too overwhelming and I broke down. Today, however, I've taken a nice, strong deep breath and gotten my focus a teeny bit in check and I feel like I have a little bit of control. At least I'm feeling like less of a spiraling out of control cluster fuck wreck.

Let's start with where I'm at on my costume. I've sewn a pair of pocket hoops but I have not attached their ties or sewn the "boning" in yet. Then I had fabric dilemma drama and a meltdown because I can't decide what to do with the fabric I bought and freaked out and haven't been working on anything. The hoops went well though, just two nights for a couple hours. I had thought I was going to make a tutorial, but I got too locked on to the project and didn't want to break between every step to take photos and what not. Besides, I had a pattern that I altered and no directions, so I was just making shit up as I went anyhow. I might make up a written tutorial after my lame drama cools off. I also have a box of jewelry supplies collected for this project to make fancy things out of and any other random supplies I thought may suit this disaster.

Also, I've decided to go unicorn. I went as a unicorn 2 years ago, but it was nothing that I really wanted it to be, so let's give it another shot. Plus, my man is going as a lion in a Napoleon get up situation of awesomeness, and what goes better with a lion than a unicorn? So, unicorn I am. 

Onto today's loveliness.

Firstly, I'd like to link the MythMasque pintrest board thingy of inspiration that they posted a link to today on facebook. Thank fucking god that they did this. It made my brain start firing again and barely begin to drag myself out of my sobbing cave of patheticness and aimless flailing. It is chalk full of wonderfulness. I highly encourage just going to the link and looking at all of the wonders. These are my personal picks. All of them can be found on their pintrest board with more information. I'll go onto the whole blather deal after the inspiration engorgement. If you want to skip the whole blather, feel free but if you're looking for books with pattern help, check out the links below.


































So because of this spark, I decided to get off my lazy ass and pin on some temporary ties to my pocket hoop that I sewed the other day and actually try it on. I had been avoiding putting it on out of fear of it just looking like shit. Buuuuuut it didn't. It definitely has a few wonky spots but they are adjustments that I knew and know require fiddling with to get everything adjusted right to me. So that gave me a huge sigh of relief.


Then I tried on a corset I have floating about just to see what's going on kind of. So I stuffed myself into the corset and then folded one of my fabrics, a silver grey striped satin, up under the edge of the corset to see how awesomely huge my new ass looked with my hip pockets. Surprisingly, this went well and got me all kinds of excited that this actually was the shape that I was dreaming and desperately crossing my fingers for. I played with a few fabric options I have and decided for sure on the silver satin my outer skirt.


I also was able to decide that I will be making the bodice and outer skirt separate. I had started thinking that I was going to follow a pattern that I'm using for the skirt to make a gown with an attached skirt and bodice, but after today's experiments, fuck that. I am making two separate pieces and I am soooo glad that today's events helped me come to conclusions that were scaring and eluding me before.


So, I will be making a corset type of bodice with an altered bustline and perhaps a shortened waistline, an outer skirt, and then contrasting petticoat layers that are tattered and what have you. I have not decided on whether the outer skirt and bodice will be the same or contrasting fabrics.

Now onto where I'm pulling patterns from. My mom found two books at our library and thought they may help inspire me. Wellll, she checked out two FUCKING AMAZING books. Holy crap. And as I've searched about online for patterns and tuts, these books have come up a few times, so I'm super excited to have them in my hands for free.

Both books are filled with patterns that are to scale that you can enlarge and both include methods of enlargement. Neither one has step by step instructions for making the garments though.



Costume Close-Up Clothing Construction:1750-1790 by Linda Baumgarten

This book has scaling by inches or centimeters along the border of the pattern page making it super easy for any kind of enlargement. The patterns are all based off of surviving garments and has photos of each garment. It also discusses the types of textiles, techniques, what stitches were used, etc., as well as some construction directions, about each piece. It is an amazing book. You would be able to make perfect period accurate pieces using this book.


This is the book that I am using to pattern my skirt, petticoat, and pockets from.









Patterns Theatrical Costumes by Katherine Strand Holkeboer

This book is stuffed full of costumes from Ancient Egypt to 1915. I'm not sure why it stops at 1915 though. I feel it's a weird cutoff but whatever. Every costume is accompanied with a pattern. Many of the costumes have their coordinating undergarments as well. These patterns however, feel like basic slopers and are just a starting point where the other book's patterns are much more refined feeling. There is no instruction on construction at all in this book but there is naming of odd/funky pieces of clothing that I had never heard before. The patterns are all 1/8" = 1" scale. These are not period accurate costumes so I wouldn't recommend them for a serious reenactor or period buff.



I used this book for my pocket hoops that I slightly modified.


For both books, I used my "Tracer" projector to enlarge them appropriately on the wall. This worked perfectly and issue free. I also just picked up a roll of brown postage paper from the dollar store to transfer onto, which I fucking love compared to that tissue paper crap that comes in store bought patterns. I always feel like I'm just going to obliterate that crap by breathing on it the wrong way.


Also in regards to both books, I'm sure many people will stray from them because they lack instruction on construction but don't. I have not sewn that much and it's early enough in my sewing career to definitely still say that each project I take on is totally different and I'm in a brand new boat every single time. So I would rate myself as an advanced novice. I have only done 4 projects off of patterns. Otherwise, I just wing it. And winging it and wandering the internet for info has been an amazing teacher. So even though I just fly by the seat of my pants, these patterns make sense without instructions. Instructions would be more than awesome to have of course, but not having them hasn't really deterred me from tackling them. But I would not dive into these patterns if you've never sewn any clothing. And the patterns do come with marks for pleats and such.

So long story short, go check out these books if you're in need of costume help.

Now I'm going to go try to do a mock of up this purse bag thing I want to make for AX.
Toodles. <3

4.23.2012

:.masquerade inspiration dump.:

Hello lovelies. 

I started a wander on Etsy due to procrastination, of course, and verified my wandering by searching for supplies for Anime Expo crap that I plan to make to sell. So I meandered to my favorites and then became distracted by old corset and costume favorites I had collected quite some time ago now and now I am feeling even more inspired for the upcoming ball that I am dramatically far too behind on. 

In fact, I have not made one thing yet. I actually haven't even pattern tested yet. I'm very likely fucked. But last Friday I showed three new pieces of art at a one night gallery show thingy. This was my first time showing pieces and I was pretty excited. I also poured all of my creative attention into those three pieces over the last two weeks. So I'm definitely behind on my masquerade ball creating and Anime Expo crap producing. Like holy shit.

I'm also starting to waiver a tad on whether I want to stick with the Marie Antoinette skirt or if I just want to bump it down to a full skirt with a hoop type setup thing still going on under it. I feel confused on how anyone is suppose to wear such a full skirt with a stay over it. Obviously it needs to be a stay or corset that does not cut low over your hips. 

I don't know. I'm feeling overwhelmed with how little time I have left and how much I need to do and it's making me not work even more. I get overwhelmed into a standby mode of not functioning. And I have so much shit to do. Fffffff. Okay. I'm done complaining like a loser. 

.......Plus I got completely sucked into the show "Skins" and all I want to do is watch more. It's eaten my soul.

Onto the inspiration fun!!~
And this time I have links to each piece with proper credit.


  







 

 Rae



These are actually the shells off of beetles.